“We need a constant reminder that grace is necessary. It was not lost on me that I give grace freely, but I don’t always receive it. I often made space for others to “fail” but the general expectation was for me to be “perfect.” This was not just in parenting and partnering but across the board. The more I processed this, I realized that lack of grace was a huge source of my frustration and pain for me, and I need to create an environment where I not only give grace to others, but set the expectation that I need grace too. Read More
Category: Faith and Mental Health
#40to40 Week 1 Summary
Pretty quickly, I learned that these themes were not linear. They did not happen and go away, and they were habits and practices I had that were the fruit (or weeds) of seeds planted earlier in life. It was interesting to see how it was connected and just how deep the root went. Read Moret
#40to40 Day 7 “The Rewrite”
Now that I got that out, let me re-write about my triggers with less anger. Read More
#40t040 Day 7 “Triggers”
I am so SICK of hearing the excuse that me not being into something, though I’ve never expressed discontent with it, is the reason for being isolated! Maybe the problem isn’t me. It’s others, and they should grow up and engage in more activities that are mutually interesting! Read More
#40to40 Day 6
It’s funny how God will affirm some things if we simply be still long enough to pay attention. Read More
#40to40 Day 5
When I woke up this morning, I said I would not let the events of yesterday impact how I feel. So, I got ready, decided I would put on a cute dress, and go about my day. It was quite a busy day with meetings and softball and Sunday prep. Overall, it was a good day. I caught another glimpse of the woman I am, and I liked it. She was training and leading, and if felt good to pull out the best of those who would normally not engage. Read More
#40to40 Day 4 “The Cliff notes”
It’s crazy how quickly that moment was almost stolen from me. Whenever anything good happens to or for me, I automatically expect curve balls to come and shatter my peace, joy, love, whatever positivity I am experiencing in the moment. I’m not sure in which of my decades this ideology took root, but it is definitely impacting my ability to be present and robbing me of the ecstasy of the moment. Read More
#40to40 Day 3 “Therapy Edition”
So, this week's assignment is self-compassion versus others-compassion, finding the balance between protecting and being authentic to myself. The lesson and healing work that needs to happen for little Mona is how to protect without sacrificing self. How do I claim my experience and be authentic to myself while not decimating others in the process? Read More
#40to40 Day 3
After laying out the plan for what the #40to40 would look like, I have been pondering how to go about this. I guess the first step is to simply dump. Maybe while I am “releasing,” revelations will be revealed and maybe even ideas on what I need to do to heal. Read More
#40to40 Day 2
The picture of what I want life to look like post-40 is still very blurry. But, the picture of what I do not want it to look like is clearer than ever. Before I can even get there, though, I need to do some healing work because leaving capitalism will require all of my esteem, confidence, and mental faculties, and I am not quite there yet. This was #day2 Read More